This is a 405lbs deadlift. And here’s my contribution to #piece2peace helping raise awareness for mental illness.                Everyone you know struggles with something here’s my story. Depression has been a battle my entire life. And here’s something I’ve kept to myself the entire time. I began therapy at 10 years old to help deal with thoughts of suicide. By the time I was 13 I was heavily medicated and had been hospitalized. Later that year I was institutionalized because of how bad I had become. Continued with therapy and counselling and medication until 18 when I was old enough to decide to try it my way. I stopped taking medication and it hasn’t been easy. I know what it’s like and it’s a rough go for anyone but there is always hope. I kept everything to myself the entire time until this year. Earlier this winter I attempted to kill myself and woke up in a hospital a few weeks later I went to see my close friend @mattryan and told him everything. He broke down and had tears coming from his eyes and he told me no matter how bad things are no matter what’s going on I always have him there and that he was just a phone call away. This changed my life and my lonely struggle forever. I love everyone who’s been there for me and since opening up to Matt everything has become just a little easier. There is always a reason to live and there is always someone willing to help you fight and if you really don’t think there is just message me I’ll prove you wrong. I hope this reaches someone who won’t like share or comment this who’s sitting alone just praying to die and I hope you read this and decide to live just one more day at a time. Thank you to my closest friends. @honjoward  @dirtydrizzle @officialmelissanicole @snipegreen @thestagemonster and @mattryan for being there to hold me up when all I wanted to do was collapse.

This is a 405lbs deadlift. And here’s my contribution to #piece2peace helping raise awareness for mental illness. Everyone you know struggles with something here’s my story. Depression has been a battle my entire life. And here’s something I’ve kept to myself the entire time. I began therapy at 10 years old to help deal with thoughts of suicide. By the time I was 13 I was heavily medicated and had been hospitalized. Later that year I was institutionalized because of how bad I had become. Continued with therapy and counselling and medication until 18 when I was old enough to decide to try it my way. I stopped taking medication and it hasn’t been easy. I know what it’s like and it’s a rough go for anyone but there is always hope. I kept everything to myself the entire time until this year. Earlier this winter I attempted to kill myself and woke up in a hospital a few weeks later I went to see my close friend @mattryan and told him everything. He broke down and had tears coming from his eyes and he told me no matter how bad things are no matter what’s going on I always have him there and that he was just a phone call away. This changed my life and my lonely struggle forever. I love everyone who’s been there for me and since opening up to Matt everything has become just a little easier. There is always a reason to live and there is always someone willing to help you fight and if you really don’t think there is just message me I’ll prove you wrong. I hope this reaches someone who won’t like share or comment this who’s sitting alone just praying to die and I hope you read this and decide to live just one more day at a time. Thank you to my closest friends. @honjoward @dirtydrizzle @officialmelissanicole @snipegreen @thestagemonster and @mattryan for being there to hold me up when all I wanted to do was collapse.

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I met CT Fletcher today. Holy fuck no words haha. This is my “I’m too stoked to talk or smile face” #musclepharm #bodybuilding #fitness #hecommandedmetogrow

I met CT Fletcher today. Holy fuck no words haha. This is my “I’m too stoked to talk or smile face” #musclepharm #bodybuilding #fitness #hecommandedmetogrow

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#wcw is @angela_mazzanti hands down #nocontest #babe #punchmeout

#wcw is @angela_mazzanti hands down #nocontest #babe #punchmeout

Parenting done right haha. How I raise my kids.

Parenting done right haha. How I raise my kids.

Good morning. Yes I just woke up. Got my #timhortons coffee to get started. Black. Happy thanksgiving. I’m thankful for 24 hour gyms. Gonna go lift.

Good morning. Yes I just woke up. Got my #timhortons coffee to get started. Black. Happy thanksgiving. I’m thankful for 24 hour gyms. Gonna go lift.

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Late night lifts so I don’t go out drinking haha. I was very unmotivated today. But fuck that when it gets rough just push harder.

Late night lifts so I don’t go out drinking haha. I was very unmotivated today. But fuck that when it gets rough just push harder.

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4.53kg haha. What? I like pancakes.

4.53kg haha. What? I like pancakes.

This killed me haha. Original from @officialdoyoueven

This killed me haha. Original from @officialdoyoueven

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Possibly the best hat and shirt combo. #ilookgoodinpurple #sicesthat #bluejays #jays #ua

Possibly the best hat and shirt combo. #ilookgoodinpurple #sicesthat #bluejays #jays #ua

This is what I’ve been lifting to lately. Crushing me. #northlane #volumes #architects #cantstopmegivingafuck #lift #metal #life

This is what I’ve been lifting to lately. Crushing me. #northlane #volumes #architects #cantstopmegivingafuck #lift #metal #life

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Hey dad. Terminator 2 #terminator #eddy #dad #arnold #fuckinglegendary

Hey dad. Terminator 2 #terminator #eddy #dad #arnold #fuckinglegendary

This is too sic. #lift #idw

This is too sic. #lift #idw

#wordstoliveby #3commandments @mikefuckinjames

#wordstoliveby #3commandments @mikefuckinjames

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Legs are beat today. It’s chest day. New routine and meal plan feel great. #putonthebeef

Legs are beat today. It’s chest day. New routine and meal plan feel great. #putonthebeef

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